Notes from the desk of the Complex Gentleman - Mr. Mohamed M. Vandi: So what now?

So what now?

I find myself asking this question on a daily basis.

At the risk of sounding boastful I think it's safe to say I'm a pretty accomplished 21 year old. I graduated from college with flying colors and I managed to get a pretty well paying job in the middle of this recession. Pretty good right? I mean that is the dream isn't it?

Day after day as I get up, go to work, come back, sleep and wake up to do the same thing I cringe at the fact that this could be my life for the next 30-35 years.

That sh!t scares me. I wonder what happens to people when they transition from the life of a fun loving college student to a boring working person. I know most people would say they just grew up but I feel its something different. I mean, we all have dreams. Not many people aspire to work a nine to five for the rest of their lives. Why do people give up on those dreams? Is it because they are unrealistic? Is it because they have too many responsibilities? Or maybe they are just afraid. Afraid that they will go for that dream and come up short. Nobody wants to fail. Instead they take the safe route and work a stable job with a steady pay.

I find myself at this crossroads now. God knows I'm ambitious and I do have aspirations for greatness, but f#$@ it I'm scared too. This isn't college anymore. I can't just try new endeavors because they interest me. There is no safety net in real life and there are no do overs. If you f#$@ up, then you have to live with the consequences, and that stuff follows you. Some people never come back after that big failure.

You blame someone for not wanting to fail. But I've decided I'm not going to live by that fear. I refuse to. We only have one life to live. Our goals are out there, we just need the courage to step out in the open and grab them. So what if you fall? Get back up and go for it. As long as you are healthy you should never stop fighting for your dreams. Henry Ford failed with three companies before making the company that finally worked for him. Accepting anything less than total happiness is a disservice to yourself.

I implore anyone who reads this to keep going for their dreams. Don't settle for a mediocre life. Be Bold. Be Daring. Take a risk. You've gotta keep your eyes on the prize. I know I will...

Notes from the desk of the Complex Gentleman
- Mr. Mohamed M. Vandi